Hellth

I’ve been put on, yes I was put on

Those drugs.

Twelve a day but what could I say, I was not the expert.

They put me on, yes they had put me on

Those drugs.

That almost took my life away over the course of some days.

I told them, yes I told them about it

But who seemed affected by the slip-up and who cared my time was almost up?

Noone.

I did research, yes I always research

But this one had slipped me and when I finally did

What did I see?

The side effects, yes all these side effects

That my heart couldn’t take but I managed to eradicate.

The poison, yes that very poison

That I had once avoided at all costs but had now put my trust in these brick walls.

Do I mean people? Yes, those brick walls are people.

The ones that fend for themselves without a care for anyone else.

Years later, yes all these years later

With all these tests, notes and faces, all the appointments and time wasted.

They have nothing, Yes they all have nothing

If said I found out what’s up I’d be lying so I’ll just shut up.

So I’ll keep on pushing, yes I’ll keep on pushing

I’ve come this far on this rocky road and what’s a life without some heavy load?

Experience.

 

CassFrotastic x

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Little One

Little one, your life has just begun

And though the world can be cold

Let your light warm the life of someone

Don’t let your heart be hardened by what may you see

For there’s someone out there looking for the good in somebody

We all want love and we all need a helping hand

You may think you can do it all on your own

But I promise you that’s the biggest self deception of man

 

CassFrotastic x

Pond

Sink or swim is what it’s down to

Already in the pond so if you swim what do you swim to?

Maybe to the empty hands that you think is waiting for you

Illusion at its best don’t let the heavy whispers fool you

Deep breaths with every trickle of tears

As you float on your back it runs down to your ear

Above water under pressure and no one can hear the sounds

The whimpering the gasps your fear of going down

All the while being consistently meek

Crying is often mistaken for a sign of the weak

The fear is great but your power is stronger

The pond you thought where there exists no longer

 

CassFrotastic x

I Remember

I remember those low times

Those alone times

Those silent cries

I remember wanting to be good enough

Wanting those hugs tight enough

Protection well enough

I remember wanting to be apart of things

Normal childhood things

The nice things you see in films

I remember what was stolen from me

The pressure that was put on me

The start of events that ruined me

I remember the help I didn’t get

To calm the thoughts that made me upset

Dealing with it by myself

I remember blaming myself through it all

Putting up a major wall

Wanting to end it all

 

Written by:
CassFrotastic x

The Company You Didn’t Ask For

I’m pretty good at having you live in a loop

I can make you hate you favourite place if that’s where you found me

People love to pass me off as just a mood

While I exaggerate your life feeding on you being jumpy and uneasy

Oh such joy I have embracing my good friend denial

Together we welcome our new roommate anger

Because of us you’ll just be classed as hot tempered

Very few will take the time to dig deeper

On a scale of one to ten how detrimental am I to you?

Some may say you’re fine because your number ten may be their number two

So unfortunate for you that though I’m here I can be hard to see

Who am I you ask? I am PTSD

 

National PTSD Awareness Day
Written by:
CassFrotastic x

Beautiful Life

Let’s move on from what hurts us and smile at the sun
Let’s be excited that our new life has begun
We’re in a different place
Our minds in a different space

As we focus on what truly matters
Meditating when life throws us rough patches
The beautiful flowers and theĀ  wind on our skin
Those dimples in your cheeks when you try to stop a grin

We’re owning our happiness
And we’re yelling as loud as we can
Living in the moment stressless
Life’s at its best when we’re holding hands

 

National Making Life Beautiful Day
Written
by:
CassFrotastic x