I remember those low times
Those alone times
Those silent cries
I remember wanting to be good enough
Wanting those hugs tight enough
Protection well enough
I remember wanting to be apart of things
Normal childhood things
The nice things you see in films
I remember what was stolen from me
The pressure that was put on me
The start of events that ruined me
I remember the help I didn’t get
To calm the thoughts that made me upset
Dealing with it by myself
I remember blaming myself through it all
Putting up a major wall
Wanting to end it all
We go back and forth with feelings
Trying to find a common ground
What we settle on is almost always at my expense
It’s draining but you made me believe it’s just my way of life
Nothing about this is healthy
You sabotage every inkling of happiness I attempt to gather
Yes you have been hurt by many people time and time again
Hurt people, hurt people
Give it a chance won’t you?
Everyone is not the same and everyone isn’t out to ruin you
It’s all you want, I know
You need something to hold on to
That lets you know the happiness you feel isn’t just too good to be true
It’s real, it’s very real
So I say this to you, “let me go because I refuse to be your victim any longer”
“Yes you, you will no longer drag me down” I say to myself
How do you live when you destroy everything you touch,
When your every action hurts the ones you claim to love so much?
Always caught in between a rock and a hard place,
Smiles so rare almost forbidden from your face.
With just one look you can infect the lives of many,
With just one word you can destroy bonds if there were any.
You’re just living a life that’s forever uneasy,
Putting yourself in harms way for others if need be.
Of course you never meant to and of course you tried your best,
But who’s going to care about that when all they see is a mess?
The constant over thinker with more thoughts words can ever say,
Now they know the reasons why you want to stay away.
It feels so strange how times have changed,
I look on from afar at every passing car.
Everyone’s so busy, seems they don’t have a clue
Of why I’m so heartbroken and saddened by my view.
They took away my family, the ones that cleanses the air
Tree by tree we fall and no one seems to fear.
The dangers, oh how much it hurts
Do we have another planet to move to?
Why are we killing mother earth?
She sheds her tears with the falling rain.
No one seems to wonder, no one feels the pain…that she feels.
How much more of this do I have to see?
Am I the only one, is it just me?
Very few pay attention and very few understand,
The consequences of reckless living and the destruction of our land.
One person at a time is all it really takes,
To make a move towards a better future by decreasing our mistakes.
Emotional wounds take the longest to heal,
A mental war with both sword and shield.
Such battle can take years to subside,
Some of us give up and pay with our lives.
It’s always sad to see people’s lives just fade away,
The ones that never felt it always have the most to say.
So get off of your high horses and educate yourself,
Know that the mind can be a prison if not to you then to someone else.
Its that time again for Christmas cheer,
Carols and cookies and lights everywhere.
Families unite and the gifts make their rounds,
As the kids unwrap them quickly with giggling sounds.
This time of year is filled with so much joy,
Except for the ones that can’t afford food or toys.
Yes it’s a time for giving and helping however you can,
Being a blessing to people putting out their hands.
Why do most of us only care when the holidays are near?
And why can’t we try to help people all throughout the year?
Its been days without a word and it hurts like hell,
She’s been here before she knows this feeling all too well.
She started getting used to the pain after a while,
Doesn’t stop her from feeling that sting from inside.
As time passes by she tends to get numb,
Fighting with herself “oh what have I done?”.
She’s done it again, she let someone into her life
Now look at the mess they’ve left without saying goodbye.
No napkins please this time she refuse’s to cry don’t ask her why,
Miss gullible fell for the lies surprise surprise.
Pouring out her all only to be left unsure,
But in spite of that her love remains pure.