If you’re constantly brought back to a place does it mean you haven’t truly forgiven someone?
If its brought to you in dreams in parables, does that count?
Multiple people in the form of one person,
Using the face of somone that weren’t even involved
I like to think that you’ve forgiven someone when you no longer feel like you hate them
So why the reacurring thoughts?
Did you not heal?
Did you not forgive?
Maybe you’re over reacting and it was only just a dream
Maybe there’s more to it and all isn’t what it seem
I remember those low times
Those alone times
Those silent cries
I remember wanting to be good enough
Wanting those hugs tight enough
Protection well enough
I remember wanting to be apart of things
Normal childhood things
The nice things you see in films
I remember what was stolen from me
The pressure that was put on me
The start of events that ruined me
I remember the help I didn’t get
To calm the thoughts that made me upset
Dealing with it by myself
I remember blaming myself through it all
Putting up a major wall
Wanting to end it all
When the world gets cold
the words I write will keep me warm
and if one day you decide that you’ll be gone
they would bring me comfort until I can move on
I’m pretty good at having you live in a loop
I can make you hate you favourite place if that’s where you found me
People love to pass me off as just a mood
While I exaggerate your life feeding on you being jumpy and uneasy
Oh such joy I have embracing my good friend denial
Together we welcome our new roommate anger
Because of us you’ll just be classed as hot tempered
Very few will take the time to dig deeper
On a scale of one to ten how detrimental am I to you?
Some may say you’re fine because your number ten may be their number two
So unfortunate for you that though I’m here I can be hard to see
Who am I you ask? I am PTSD
National PTSD Awareness Day
What hugs your soul better than a hot cup of tea in the winter?
What kisses your skin in summer better than cool water?
What makes you stick around even when you’ve had enough?
What causes you to forgive even the toughest of us?
What gives you that extra pep in your step?
What gives you a feeling that you’ll never forget?
Love, love is what.
Walking along the beach in light flowy clothes
Skin kissed by the summer sun as sand met my toes
Birds flying high over sparkling waters
Families on vacation with their sons and daughters
Farewell spring your turn has come to an end
Summer is here and it’s my new bestfriend
So keep the coats and cardigans it’s not needed at this time
Spf and flip flops are what’s currently on my mind