Flummoxed

I think a lot but I don’t say too much

Feel a lot and don’t express enough

Don’t sleep a lot I know that’s not good

If I ease enough I know that I would

Mind is racing head is aching

Dreams are fussy while not relating

Waking up dazed is not a great thing

Piecing it together is very much draining

 

CassFrotastic x

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What’s Next?

You look at me with want

You gasp when I touch you

Like I’m the air to your lungs

Filled up with so much passion

Your eyes…. They speak to me

When your lips slowly part ways

But your voice refuse to greet me

What does my presence do to you?

I’d like to hear.. And is it just with me?

Or do you get like this with everybody?

Sorry I didn’t mean to kill the mood I’m just asking

I just want to know if I’m getting on for a spin

Or if it’s gonna be something with potential of lasting

 

CassFrotastic x

You’re Toxic? Bye!

Stop allowing people to drain you and stop defending the situation by saying they are  “friends” or “family”.
In every relationship it’s a two-way street.
You don’t give with the mindset of wanting something in return but let’s be honest, a lot of times that’s the root of the destruction of relationships.
No, I’m not talking about the exchange of material things.
I’m talking about the simple things like just having someone there to listen when you’ve had a rough day.

If you’re in a situation where every time you’re about to meet up with someone you have to mentally prepare yourself then cut the cord of that.
I wish I had this mindset sooner in life, oh believe me.
I would have been way less stressed.
People that think the idea of a friendship or family relationship entails constantly taking are the exact people you do not need to be around.
I’ve been on the receiving end of many “friendships” like that and trust me, if you don’t pick up on what’s really happening soon enough that situation can destroy you.

“Selfish”
Yep that seems like such a bad word doesn’t it?
Well it’s not in circumstances like these.
Selfish is exactly how you need to be especially if you’ve voiced your concerns to the leaching party and they refuse to attempt to understand or accept how you feel.
Be selfish with your happiness, speak up on how you feel, decide for yourself the people you wish to be around and stop letting people choose that for you.
You owe that to yourself.

 

CassFrotastic x

Truly Forgiven?

If you’re constantly brought back to a place does it mean you haven’t truly forgiven someone?

If its brought to you in dreams in parables, does that count?

Multiple people in the form of one person,

Using the face of somone that weren’t even involved

But why?

I like to think that you’ve forgiven someone when you no longer feel like you hate them

So why the reacurring thoughts?

Did you not heal?

Or

Did you not forgive?

Maybe you’re over reacting and it was only just a dream

Or

Maybe there’s more to it and all isn’t what it seem

 

CassFrotastic x

I Remember

I remember those low times

Those alone times

Those silent cries

I remember wanting to be good enough

Wanting those hugs tight enough

Protection well enough

I remember wanting to be apart of things

Normal childhood things

The nice things you see in films

I remember what was stolen from me

The pressure that was put on me

The start of events that ruined me

I remember the help I didn’t get

To calm the thoughts that made me upset

Dealing with it by myself

I remember blaming myself through it all

Putting up a major wall

Wanting to end it all

 

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CassFrotastic x