I think a lot but I don’t say too much
Feel a lot and don’t express enough
Don’t sleep a lot I know that’s not good
If I ease enough I know that I would
Mind is racing head is aching
Dreams are fussy while not relating
Waking up dazed is not a great thing
Piecing it together is very much draining
You wanted it.
You applied for it.
You got it.
Now it’s about to be your first day and you’re excited but you’re nervous.
Advice? Just do it.
There is a reason why you first applied and there will be some anxiousness because it’s something new but don’t let that control you.
You know you can do it that’s why you decided to put yourself out there so give yourself a chance and before you know it you’ll be looking back and thinking, “I can’t believe I was afraid of this”.
White walls now all is bright
Hanging around are fairy lights
The glowing reflections that I see
Calms the anxieties the day has brought me
Yellow, brown and standing tall
Such beauty laid against the walls
Sunny days or gloomy weather
Sunflowers make everything so much better
Let me kiss the scar you always want to hide
Hold you and calm the pain you feel inside
Reassure you whenever you feel insecure
Prove to you my intentions are genuine and pure
Let us stay up all night talking about places we want to go
Cuddle up on the couch on rainy days and watch our favourite show
Have cook offs and laugh at the mess we’ve made everywhere
Zone out in the bath about the greatness we share
Us camping while I pretend not to fuss at the bugs
You smiling and appreciating I’m doing this for love
Our road trips always filled with laughs and adventure
Taking life one day at a time creating our happily ever after
When the world gets cold
the words I write will keep me warm
and if one day you decide that you’ll be gone
they would bring me comfort until I can move on
I’m pretty good at having you live in a loop
I can make you hate you favourite place if that’s where you found me
People love to pass me off as just a mood
While I exaggerate your life feeding on you being jumpy and uneasy
Oh such joy I have embracing my good friend denial
Together we welcome our new roommate anger
Because of us you’ll just be classed as hot tempered
Very few will take the time to dig deeper
On a scale of one to ten how detrimental am I to you?
Some may say you’re fine because your number ten may be their number two
So unfortunate for you that though I’m here I can be hard to see
Who am I you ask? I am PTSD
National PTSD Awareness Day
Walking along the beach in light flowy clothes
Skin kissed by the summer sun as sand met my toes
Birds flying high over sparkling waters
Families on vacation with their sons and daughters
Farewell spring your turn has come to an end
Summer is here and it’s my new bestfriend
So keep the coats and cardigans it’s not needed at this time
Spf and flip flops are what’s currently on my mind